About Mirror of My Self

Self is God. Self is Guru. Self is Everything.

This blessed mirror reflects nothing but the Self of my Beloved Brother, my Highest Gurudeva and my Spiritual Father. Whatever you see, read and experience in this blog are only from Him, through me, for you, my dear visitor.

This slave is taking immense pleasure in welcoming you to experience my Self in all its glories!

Shree Rama Jayam.

Monday, July 11, 2016

My Prayer of Gratitude!

Thank You, Lord...
I know You feed me when I am hungry!

Thank You, Lord...
I know You hug me when I am disheartened!

Thank You, Lord...
I know You correct me when I am wrong!

Thank You, Lord...
I know You take care of every little thing in my life!

Thank You, Lord...
I know You lead me to the path of righteousness every single day!

Thank You, Lord...
I know You have bestowed me the greatest gift ever in the form of my own brother!

Thank You, Lord...
I know You are breathing, eating, smiling, teasing, playing with me in the form of my very own Gurudeva!

Thank You, Lord...
For all that said...
And the lot, unsaid...

Thank You....
Jai Shri Ram! Jai Jai Shri Ram!!
Shri Rama Jeyam! Shri Rama Paatha Jeyam!! 

Saturday, June 4, 2016

"Happiness is Ilaiyaraaja"

In a tucked away mountain-village, 
as silence reigns the cold night,
as melting dews turn into a smoky blanket, 
Hiding the sparkle of the starlit sky,
as the blossoming moon's reflection 
fall on the glistening marble floor, 
putting its glow to shame,
as humans forget their nonsense in deep slumber,

The Divine Musician,
is working his endless magic
on an awakened soul.

lost & found

to the tunes of Ilaiyaraaja

to the voice of Ilaiyaraaja

to the celestialness of Ilaiyaraaja

That lucky soul,
in between his melodies and silence,

“Happiness is Ilaiyaraaja!”
Happy Birthday ‪#‎Ilaiyaraaja‬, you are my spiritual mother who feeds the soul-nourishing milk of music to my life. May you live forever, forever, & forever!

(Wrote this poem on a winter night in Thoorthoormattam and shared it on the KING OF MUSIC's Birthday via Facebook from a warm Chennai.)

Thursday, December 24, 2015

Feeling Grateful

Innumerable times in my life and now even in an appalling natural catastrophe like the Chennai floods, I have seen these words above duly manifest and come into play.
While I vouch for those words spoken by Marianne Williamson, I could never thank my brother, my very own super-awesome Gurudeva, Ramesh Sadasivam, enough or offer anything in return for making sure I stay connected to this Higher Intelligence and experience the role of all our Gods at all times in my life, from mundane activities to testing situations. For this, I owe all my lifetimes to him.
Also, I remember all my extraordinary Gurus including Balakumaran, Illaiyaraaja, Ramana Maharishi, Yogi Ramsuratkumar, Vallalar, Sheshadri Swamigal, Suki Sivam, Dr.Sudha Seshayyan, Srila Prabhupada, Swami Chinmayanada, Swami Vivekananda, Ramakrishna Pramahamsar, Saratha Devi, Shridi Sai Baba, Mother, Mahatma Gandhi, Paulo Coelho, and many other spiritual giants who have inspired me to pursue the spiritual path and have saved me from many a trying situation.
I bow down a thousand crore times to each one of them, with immense gratitude, love and devotion.
Jai Shri Ram! Jai Jai Shri Ram!!

Wednesday, December 23, 2015

Thalaimuraigal Movie Thoughts - Remembering Balu Mahendra

Back then, when I shared this post, I had not watched the movie. Later, I was only able to view it online that too in a poor video quality. But still the pristine beauty of the film, the heartwarming story and scenes, and, of course, the camera and ‪#‎Ilaiyaraaja‬'s soulful score together left me in awe. Only few creators in the world were able to turn their last work into a masterpiece. My‪ #BaluMahendra‬ belongs to that rare breed.
Be it ubranisation, religious differences, or your own ego, the film will teach you a good lesson or two about life and happiness. Thalaimuraigal, undoubtedly, is Balu Mahendra's message to the world. I would even say through this film he had given the solution to all the self-created problems. Unlike Balu Mahendra's usual films, it was not shot in his beloved ‪#‎Ooty‬. It didn't have Raja's lovely songs(regrets though!). But what it did have was Balu Mahendra's personal transformation and legacy. The man had poured everything he learned and experienced in his lifetime into this film.
For a person, who always wears a cap and sometimes covers himself with a shawl even while going for a casual walk in ‪#‎Chennai‬, to show up half-naked with his bald head and aging body onscreen is a very daring thing, marks his spiritual evolution. In many of his early films, we can see his trust in God. But in this film, he even goes on to write 'Shri Rama Jeyam.'
This film certainly deserves a place in every family's library. If at all the Tamilnadu Government wants to distribute something for free, then it should be the DVD of this movie. Of course, after paying a royalty to the producer, Director Sasikumar whom I really thank and respect for producing this film. (Sir, you must have done some real punnyam to earn the noble credit of being the producer of my Balu Mahendra's last film, தமிழ் கூறும் நல் உலகம் இதற்காக என்றும் உங்களுக்கு நன்றி கூறும், கூற வேண்டும்! )
I remember my brother watching this movie consecutively for two or three times in the theatres just like he had mentioned in this post. I watched it only online because no theatres were screening it in my place. If you haven't yet seen it, watch the film online, get a Thiruttu VCD(if available), or catch it on‪#‎JayaTV‬ when possible.
Because the best and probably the only way to pay back for this film would be imbibing the timeless message and beauty Balu Mahendra had so admirably and masterfully captured in it. What better honour and tribute could we pay for this most gentle director of our times!
(P.S. Wrote this post when Facebook shared a memory I had posted in 2013)

Thursday, June 12, 2014

Wednesday, April 9, 2014

Baby Shri Rama's Special Birthday Gift!

சீரறாச் செல்வம் போல் சேர்கவே என் ஆசான் ஸ்ரீரமேஷ் சதாசிவத்திற்கே புகழ்!
All Glories to my Gurudeva!!

The very next day the cute little Baby Rama was born, He, seems so pleased by my bro's heart-felt, sweet lullabies and soul-felt devotional songs, decided to bless our family in the least way expected. In the temple nearby my present home at Thoothoormattam, a small village on the outskirts of Coonoor, the yearly festival is now being celebrated with much pomp and gusto. Today morning happens to be the most auspicious event: Shri Muthumariamman's wedlock day. And the most interesting thing is no one in our family, except for my mom and grandma, decided to partake in this most revered function that starts around 3 am in a chilly morning. The wedlock between the maverick ascetic, Lord Shiva in the form of Mahalingam and the ever-beautiful and benevolent Shakthi in the form of Muthumaari, is the most important event in our village function.  I attended it for the first time as we are pretty new to this village. 

And least did we expect my dad, a life-long ardent follower of DK, who simply went to witness the function(perhaps, for the sake of my mother :D) was surprisingly called to preside the event on the behalf of the Lord Shiva's family. He was honoured as the father-in-law of Mother Shakthi, the most beloved sister and eyes of our Maha Vishnu. My father, who is known to make meaningless potshots and fun of our Gods like all those brainwashed atheists in Tamil Nadu, was there like a ever-loyal devotee, doing all he can to get His supposedly-Son, the Mighty Shiva Himself married off to Mother Shakti.  Being the Bridegroom's father,  he had no option but to sincerely repeat the verses and do everything as told.  I couldn't help but smile and laugh throughout the function, seeing my father being adorned with garlands(maligai malai) and pattai(thilak) in front of all devotees and looked like an authentic Shaivate. My mother was extremely pleased at the unexpected turn of events today morning and went on to sing a lullaby(actually it must have been a duet song) to the newly married Divine Couples. I was obviously pleased and elevated to see my father and mother being in the limelight, next only to the newly married ones at the BramaMurtham on this wonderful wednesday morning.

Yesterday, though being Rama Navami, my Gurudeva's favourite Lord Rama's birthday, I was in low spirits and bothered myself all day and also night only to complete some writing chores. Drums and dance were rocking the whole village like there was no tomorrow, but nothing lifted my spirits and got me out of my shell. I was just wondering all day how to simply be happy and confined my Self mostly within my room. Even though my bro wrote some of the finest devotional poems yesterday, I couldn't warm and cheer him excitedly like I usually do. I was just awake and trying to finish the works and eager to be off to bed. But something drove me to the temple. Maybe, I thought it would be nice to walk a little bit, breathe fresh air, and feel the cold of the wee hours aftering staring at my perazhagi for hours. So I went just like that in my pajamas to the temple, having no clue what will happen. But Goddess Maa was so kind and benevolent that She Herself made me and everyone in our family feel so special and bestowed a truly memorable and sacred experience that we could cherish forever.

And I, from being a stagnant pond, have started to flow again like a river....a gushing yet content, gleeful yet calm, effortlessly flowing river. My beloved readers, could there be a better blessing than to realise that you are already blessed! Well, that's what happened today and I took it as a birthday gift from baby Shri Rama Himself as a token of appreciation for my bro's devotional outpourings on Shri Rama Navami. 

And that's one of the few perks of being a slave, my dear folks. :D

Jai Shri Baal Ram!!
Jai, Jai, Shri Baal Raam!!!

P.S: Actually there is no better welcoming song for the Bride while entering Her new Home. As a act of participating in this Auspicious Marriage, you can enjoy the mesmerizing song and soul-stirring lyrics about Mother Goddess, who blesses you even without your seeking! 

Monday, March 31, 2014

My soul's eternal wish!

No matter how many lifetimes, O Gurudeva!
i want to be your eternal slave...

No matter how many births, O Gurudeva!
i want to be your beloved brother...

No matter how many yugas, O Gurudeva!
i want to be your loyal servant....

Like Vishnu and AdhiShesha
Like Rama and Lakshmana
Like Bharatha and Shatrugana

i want to be inseparable...
i want to be indivisible...
i want to be inextricable...
from You!

Again and again,
forever and ever,
births after births,
deaths after deaths,

To be born with You...
To be hugged and kissed by You...
To be mentored and sculpted by You...
To be loved and loved and loved by You....

my soul's eternal wish...
my heart's longing desire...
my life's perpetual prayer...
my many lifetimes burning search...

i beseech You...
O my ever-compassionate Gurudeva!
Will you kindly bestow me this greatest of the greatest boon?